Day 3

Yesterday marked day three of my Rosary Novena.  I had along day.  While on vacation I found out I got a new position writing.  But it requires alot of writing.  Because I am on a trial period it is important to me to make sure that I do a good job.  So when I finished writing I decided that it was time to go to bed. 

I remembered that I was doing the novena, so I took the time before bed to say my rosary.  I am so glad that I did.  I know that I need to make more time in my life for God, and by doing this I am able to do this.  I can take 30 minutes out of my busy day for him.

I am very excited that the novena has become a success for me

Vacation with the Family

After a long day, I am setteling down and getting ready to go to bed.  I look at he past couple of days and I realise that my vacation would not have been so much fun if things were different.  Having the time with everyone has been wonderful, you could say even amazing.

I got to get to know my brother in law so much better.  He is a lot of fun, and such a great father.  The way he looks at his little girl is amazing. 

My sister got to get some rest that she needed and to see her look so well rested was great. 

Seeing my parents have so much fun with there grandchildren was wonderful. I am so glad that they are here to play with them, and have fun with them.  It is wonderful that my children have grandparents who are so involved in  there lives.  I just don't know where I would be with out them. 

Being able to spend time with my Grandma is wonderful.  I have enjoyed it so much.  These are moments that I will never get back and I am so glad that we were able to do that.  Watching my boys interact with her is so wonderful.

This is a great place to be.  Relaxing by the lake!!!

Day 2

I got some time this afternoon I got sometime to pray.  I was so relaxed, and it was so nice.  I actually fell asleep after I was done, and doing some relection.

Sun Set

Vacation is wonderful.  We have had such a relaxing trip.  We took a sunset trip on the boat, and we got some beautiful pictures:

 

Just a beautiful picture.

 

 

God shares some beauty with us!

Start Over again

So I have a hard time with following through with somethings.  So here it goes.  I missed a day with my novena, so I started over.  I missed yesterday, so I woke up this morning and said my first day for the novena. 

Starting habits are hard to do but I am glad that I am trying to do it.  I will do it.  I can do it.

Quiet

I have to say as much as I wish I could sleep in, it is so nice that I am getting up early with nathan and enjoying the quiet.  Coffee is already made.  I can blog for a few minutes.  I get the time to myself.  What a great feeling.

It is not often that I get to take time for myself.  It is not often that many of us can stop to take time for ourselves.  It is hard when we all need that time.  It is our time for prayer, for centering, for letting things go.  It is so important for our well being, for our soul.  

The quiet is so nice.  I feel very blessed to have the quiet.  I recommend if you don't already - take some time to step back and take some time for quiet in your life

Feeding my spiritual hungar

In my last post I said that I was going to for the first time do a 54 day novena for the rosary.  I did my research and I sat down today to start it.  It was a great feeling.  To be able to take the time for Mary and to take the time to pray.  This is time for me to build my faith.  Time for me to grow closer to Mary.  Time for me to grow closer to God.  And time for me to grow closer to Jesus.

I have been feeling this hungar for a while and I am very excited that I am finally going to be able to feel satisfied.  I am taking it one day at a time.  Remembering why I am doing it.  I am going to look forward to saying the rosary every day so that I can grow closer with God, and so that I can fill the void in my heart.

To help keep myself motivated I am going to post each day, how I feel with praying the Rosary!

Hungry for God?

I have decided that I need to bring the Rosary back into my life.  We had a long car ride and I was starting to feel unsettled, so I decided to take the time to pray the rosary.  That was one of the best decisions that I could have made. 

So far it was a very stressful trip, the kids were crabby, it just seemed to drag along.  I was listening to a Rosary Army Catholic Show Podcast and Jennifer was talking about doing a 54 day novina.  So I have decided that this might be something that I should do.  They were talking about a spiritual hungar, which made me think.  Looking back now I think that I have been feeling this way for a while, but I just never knew it.  The "symptoms" that she had listed are ones that I have been feeling for a while now. 

I feel so blessed this episode could not have come at a better time in my life.  I just started praying the rosary, I am still learning.  I am sure that there are times that I don't do it right, but I know that as long as I am trying that I am doing my best that I will learn and that is all that matters. 

So now on to my research on how to do a 54 day novina.  I am very intersted and I know nothing about this idea.  I have been feeling this spiritual hunger for a while and now it is time to feed my soul!

Lake House

We are getting ready to go on vacation for the week.  My husband's family has a lake house.  How wonderful that we can go on a week vacation - It costs us gas and food.  What a nice thing to do.  We are right on the water. The boys love being able to play outside.  I love sitting in the water and relaxing.

 

We have everything that we have at home.  Internet, cable TV, telephone, so it is just like being at home. 

It is so beautiful.

A Mother's Gift

I often wonder how a mother can stay well while her children are sick.  Both of my kids got sick.  Nate was running a 102.5 fever.  He still has the cold symptoms.  His poor little nose is bright red.  I have to keep cleaning it out and doing sailene drops to help keep him clear.  Tyler has been coughing and just acting more clingie - which he does when he is not feeling well.  Brian is not feeling well, he sounds terrible and you can see in his eyes he is just not feeling well.

I have to take care of my children, and take care of the house, and get everything ready for vacation.  I am amazed with staying up as late at night as I have been, that I have not come down with anything *Knocking on wood*

It just amazes me that mothers will stay well to take care of there families.  How does our bodys know that we need to be healthy during this time?  What makes us different?

My thoughts on this are simple - God made us that way.  He made us have the ability to fight off the germs that our children have so that we can take care of them and still get everything done that we need to do.  He did this because we need to be strong.

So Thank you God for letting me take care of my sick family and keeping me healthy!!

Lets Get Ready

We are getting ready to go on our week away.  I love going away, but preparing is another story.  Laundry has to be done.  I hate keeping up with laundry.  And of course someone has to wear something that they will need so I always have to do a last minute load. 

The dog has to have all of his things together so that he can go to the kennel.  That means packing all of his food into individual bags, with his name on them.  Getting his pills ready and anything else I want to bring for him.

Don't forget to clean up the house before you leave.  Nothing worse than coming home to a messy house.  So I make sure that everything is cleaned up.  The trick is to do this with kids playing and messing while cleaning.

Litter boxes need to be cleaned.  I hate cleaning those out, they smell so bad.  But they need a good cleaning before leaving.  I try to make sure that is as last minute as possible.

Then packing.  Making sure that you have enough cloths for the boys, expecially Ty because he is potty training and still has accidents now and again.  Making sure that any "special" toys and blankets are ready and easily found.  Don't forget my sleep apnea machine and other things like that.  And of the most important thing - The lap top and camera, LOL.

Now time to clean out the car.  Yes clean out the car.  I try to keep it clean.  Before I had kids my car was spotless, now a completely different story.  We have to take all of the junk out of the car to fill the car up with everything we need to bring with us.

We need to make sure that the potty seat is easily accessable for Ty just in case he has to go as we are traveling.  Hopefully not, but better safe than sorry.

So now that I have written about what I need to do, time to do it... 

To Forgive...

Things have changed in my life a lot recently.  Through these changes I have learned many things about myself.  I have also learned that  forgiving someone is not for there benefit, it is for yours.  And forgiveness can be given if people don't ask for, just if you are willing to do it.  Forgiveness is not easy, but it is worth it.  I know I feel so much  better when I take the time to to just forgive them.

But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.
Mark 11:25-27 

We need to forgive one and other.  So I have been asking for help to be able to forgive others.  It is not an easy task, but it is a task that is neccessary.

“To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”

 Robert Muller quotes

So I am working on asking for others to forgive me, but mostly that I forgive others.  People that don't even know that they need to be forgiven.  People that you no longer talk to.  It is amazing how forgivness can raise your spirit.  Make you feel great.

I suggest that you try it... Just forgive one person and see how you feel when it is all over.

Party Time

We had our little get together yesterday to celebrate Nate's birthday.  It was such a nice day.  Warm, but great to have the kids get in the pool and swim.  the weather held out all day.  It was beautiful.  Kids were running around playing outside and having a great time.

We had a cook out.  Simple food, hambugers and hotdogs.  Very nice time.

My children are so blessed we had my grandmother and my husband's grandmother with us to celebrate Nathan's birthday.  How nice to have 4 generations there to celebrate.  It is so nice to have our grandparents around to be apart of our children's lives.  

It was so nice to see my cousins, my god children, my niece and my children all playing together.  The adults were talking and having a good time. 

When the heat got to much outside we were able to come in and play inside.  We have so many toys that there was something for all of the children to play with.  The dog even had a good time going in and out.


It was so nice to have everyone here to celebrate and have a good time.

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Movie Reviews


Wow, how fun.

Speeding Time

Wow a year goes by so quickly.  I remember being a child and thinking how long the summer was.  That waiting for a special day seemed to take forever.  Waiting for my birthday was an eternity.  I never thought that a year would pass.  

Then came highschool.  The days started to go by faster.  Events would come just a little faster.  But waiting for swim meets or to turn 16 so that I could drive still took forever.  Being excited about going out with friends seemed to take forever.  Christmas and summer vacations seemed to fly by at the time but looking back they were not that fast.  

Then came college.  The days started to get shorter.  Having time to fit everything in became a little more difficult, but somehow everything would fit in.  The days went at a good pace.  Time for everything was there.  

Here came my 20's and some how the same 24 hours I had in my teens or when I was a child seemed to speed up.  It was almost like time changed.  It is amazing how things start to speed up.  Then I got married and had added some bigger responsibility in my life, and again time started to speed up.  Two years later our first son was born, and again time speeded up.  Two years later our youngest son was born, and the same thing happened again.  

Now I am 30.  My baby is 1.  The past year has gone by in a flash.  I don't know what happened.  How does time magically speed up?  What happened?  Time is amazing.  

When I stop to think about it, the more responsibility I have the faster time goes.  The more that I have to do in a day the faster time goes.  The more that I have to do the less time I have to do it in.  

Now the secret is to find out how to make time slow down!

The Computer - Part 2 Lost with out it

I have a lap top and I absolutley love it.  It is a great investment.  I love the fact that when we go places it can go with me.  I just don't know what I would do with out it.  Expecially with all of the places that now offer free wifi.  Places like coffee shops, McDonalds, malls, airports, hotels, ect... almost everywhere I go I find a business that offeres it.  It is amazing that everywhere you go you can find free internet access.  The laptop allows you to do so much. 

Yesterday I was with out my laptop.  We had to wipe it clean and start over again because of a problem with Outlook.  I like usin outlook and have not found another e-mail client that I liked for what I need it to do.  So I was with out my laptop all day. 

It was nice to be able to spend the time with my boys.  We do have a desk top so I was able to do somethings, but nothing like what I do with my Laptop.  I have it back again, and now the tedious job of re-install everything, putting everything back.  We did a back up of everything, but you still have to set up the little things, so that it is how you like it.

So one day with out my computer made me feel lost.  I felt like I had lost a limb.  I never realized how dependent on the computer I really am until it was gone.  I could not talk to my friends on plurk or twitter.  I felt like I was missing something.

But on the other hand I got to spend the days with my boys.  I did not have to check my e-mail, or tell the wait mommy has something to do.  It was nice to be able to play with my children.

But I feel better that I am back to feeling normal.  I have my computer back.  I can get things done again.  I am glad to have everything back.

Computer - Part 1 The Blessings!

The invention and evolution of computers is really amazing. You can organize you life on a computer. Keep all of your information at you finger tips. You can access information in a matter of seconds. It has made businesses more efficient, allowing them to access information with a touch of a button, instead of going through mountains and mountains of paper work. We are saving the environment because we don't have to print out everything. We can read it on the computer. We save money because we can keep in touch with people all over the world in a matter of seconds.

I really don't know how I grew up with out a computer. It just does not seem possible. I rely on the computer to organize, record events, save pictures, talk to friends. It is a great tool, that I could not live with out.

We have the internet. We can search for anything we need to, and find hundred or thousands of websites with information about that topic. You can find games, educational and ones just for fun. You can look up medical information about problems. You can keep track of your finances. The computer will do almost anything for you.

With all of the social media you can talk to people all over the world, that you would have never met any other way. You can find people who have similar interests. You can have find people to help you with anything. Talk to them instantly through social media sites such as plurk, twitter, friendfeed, just to mention a few. You can play games with them on sites like facebook. Share about your life on Myspace. You can talk to people with the same religion on 4marks.

I have learned so much though podcasts. They are wonderful because you can find one on any topic, and learn information. There are hundreds and thousands of people who have put out information on podcasts. Don't forget about blogs, they also share so much great information.

Email is a great tool. You can contact people at anytime of the day, ask questions, talk about anything. They can respond when they have time. You can keep in touch with friends that you may not be able to call. I love the fact that if I can't sleep I can talk to a friend because I am not waking them up, and they can respond when they can.

Computers have really changes my life. Being able to do so much is so much fun. I can't wait to see what comes out next!

Taking time for Children

As my boys get older I often forget that they are still little boys.  It is so hard to realize that my 3 1/2 year old is only 3 1/2.  He is such a big boy.  He is very tall for his age, and his face make him look like he is at least 5.  I never realized how hard it is to remember ages, when he is so big.  I expect so much more of him because he looks so old.  With having his younger brother around, and having him be so dependent on me, that I want my older guy to be more independent.  I forget that he is not that independent.

I find that sometimes it is just so important to take a few minutes out of my busy day to sit down and cuddle with my children.  Read a book with them.  Play with them.  Listen to them.  Taking the time to put them first is not an easy task.  I often want to get so many things done that I forget that my children are there.  I get angry when I want to do something and they are in the way.  It is so easy to do that. 

I find that by taking the time and letting them help me, it makes such a difference.  It might take longer, alot longer at times, but in the long run it really doesn't.  I don't have to yell as much.  I don't have to get angry with him. 

He just wants to help mommy, it is so important to him to make mommy proud.  The smile on his face when he helps. 

I have to remember that my children are my world.  They love me no matter what happens.  They are so easy to forgive, and forget. 

It takes two

Before having children, I never knew how much I would appreciate being able to sleep in on the weekends, have an uninterrupted night of sleep.  I remember complaining because I had to get up and get ready for work.  Feeling like I did not get any sleep at all.  I was so rested.  

Sleep is so important to so many things.  Having a lack of sleep can effect, concentration, the ability to "keep your cool," weight loss, and so much more.  

With the receint weight gain I have had, I have been diagnosed with Sleep Apnea, adn I have to wear a mask at night to keep my oxygen level at night up.  Which is great when I get a full night of uninterruped sleep.  What a great feeling.  I feel refreshed.  But that does not happen often.

With the kids getting up, I am unable to wear my mask all night, even half of the night.  I am so tired most of the time that it is hard for me to really be a good mom.  I have been working on getting more sleep but that is hard to do most of the time. 

With all of the struggles I am going through my husband has been wonderful to help me out.  He is really stepping up to make it so that I can get some sleep.  I don't know what I would do without him.  We are such a team.  He understands and does his best to make sure that I can start to get back into a routine.  I try to make sure he can sleep in on the weekends and help him out that way.    Having children is a hard job and it requires both parents.  I have to say I don't know how single parents do it.

MOMS Club Meeting

I have been a member of MOMS Club of Parma for the past 2 years.  I love being a MOMS Club Member.  What a wonderful support group.  As of reciently our chapter has been going through a tough time.  Actually most of the chapter left.  I was very upset at first.  I did not want to see it disband so I took over the president's position.  I think that this is the best thing I could have done. 

Right now we only have 4 members, but we have people looking into our chapter so we are a work in progress.  I struggled at the first meeting. I wanted to run things like they were run in the past, but I realzed that it did not work well, so things have to change.  So that is what I am doing.  I am working on changing that.  I guess the best way to put it is that I am working on changing myself.  It will be a good change I truely believe that.  I know that by trying and keep trying I will be able get the chapter back into the glory that it once had.  

It is hard  because I was friends with most of the people that left, but I guess this is for the best.  I finally feel that I can be myself, I don't have to put up a front to get people to like me.  I know now that I will not make any friends by being a monkey, but I will make them by being myself.  

So anyways, the meeting went well, and I feel we are off to a good start.  I am now working on planning out August and getting people to help me to join the board and grow our chapter.  I know I can do it!!

Fourth of July

What a wonderful weekend. We got to spend some time with my inlaws. We were there for the 4th of July. It was a fun time watching all of the kids play together. They were running, swimming, and playing. T was youngest of the kids that were running around. But he played well with them. It is hard because he is so tall and yet is just a little shorter than all of the rest of the kids. He is 3 years younger than the next closest to his age. It was so much fun watching him play with the kids. I did not know that gender separation starts so young. The boys basically played together and the girls played together. But they all had so much fun. I can't wait to see what happens as they get older. There were three little ones that were crawling or just sitting there. That was fun watching them play together, or I should say next to each other. They were so cute. You could tell what toys were at hit - the empty water bottles. I often wonder why we spend so much money on toys when kids like toys like boxes and empty bottles better, but that is another blog all together. I can't believe how big my children are getting. Watching T play with other children is so much fun. It is amazing how each year things change so much. They are so much more fun as they get older. Watching there imagination grow and develope is so much fun.

Blessings From Within Podcast

Episode 3 Is now Ready

I can make it through

I have a lot of changes in my life as of lately. I know in my heart that they are for the better. That by no means make them any easier. I have had people who I thought were my friends just turn out not to be. I have had many days of crying and feeling a lot of self pity. I have had many days of eating anything just to help fill in the hurt.

I have been praying for help. I have been praying that I can be strong and I can make it through. I put my entire life into God's hands for the first time. I trusted that God would help guide me through the rough spots. I have a hard time trusting that anyone will help take care of me, and that things will work out.

I am amazed that by the trust that I put in God. By the faith, I have pulled through. I feel comfortable. I feel at peace. I know that I will make it through anything.

While there days I feel that I am starting over, I know that it is for the best. I am so much happier than I have ever been in my life. My boys are starting to see a mommy that is happy, and that is a wonderful feeling. I am appreciating what I have more than I ever have before. I know that I will make it through everything.