My Prayer Today

Today Lord I Pray for

My eyes to be open to see your great work

My ears to be ready to listen to your quiet whispers

My mouth to speak only words that will reflect my love of you

My heart to love all that you have given me in my life

 My hands to be ready to do your will

My soul to be child-like to trust that you are with me today.

Amen

Prayer

Looking at myself I have chosen this Lenten season to focus my energy on prayer.  I am working on adding additional time to my day to pray.  Finding ways to slow down the fast pace of my life, and take the time to enjoy all of the blessings that I have around me.

I am praying for so many things, but the focus is the strength to continue to work out and change my life.  This is a change that is much needed and very hard to do.  While the basic end result will be losing weight and getting to a weight that I am comfortable with, I am also looking to focus on something more.  I am using this focus on helping me be able to push though all of the difficult parts and times in my life, and use the power of prayer to focus on the strength that I need to achieve any goals that I have that will be difficult.

I have seen that when you are going through a tough time and turn away from God it makes everything more difficult.  I have taken a different approach, and that is to do something completely different and that is to focus on prayer and turning to God when things are starting to become more difficult in my life.  I have found when I take the time to focus and allow God to be there with me and help guide me something amazing happens, I find that I feel stronger and that I can make it through.

Prayer is an amazing part of my life and I have recently seen all of the most difficult tasks, when I pray become more bearable.  That does not mean that they become easier, they are just more bearable for me to deal with.  I have figured out for me that opening up myself, not setting expectations, and realizing that God will be there and help you, when you open up your life to prayer.  This was the most difficult lesson that I had to learn!

I am taking the time to find the different ways to open my heart, mind and soul to prayer.  Finding different times during the day to stop and pray.  Not only during the wonderful times, but also the difficult times.  I am finding ways to thank God for the wonderful gifts around me and ask God for help when the situation gets tough.  Recently I am also praying for his guidance and to allow the Holy Spirit to come and help bless me with the wonderful gift of Patience.  This is one gift that I need the most help with.

I have found in my life, opening up my life to prayer is one of the most difficult and yet the single most rewarding experience that I have ever had.

Novena

I have not posted updates from me doing my novena.  But I am doing well so far.  I am proud of myself.  I have made time every day to say my rosary.  I feel great.  I am so glad I decided to start doing this.

Day 3

Yesterday marked day three of my Rosary Novena.  I had along day.  While on vacation I found out I got a new position writing.  But it requires alot of writing.  Because I am on a trial period it is important to me to make sure that I do a good job.  So when I finished writing I decided that it was time to go to bed. 

I remembered that I was doing the novena, so I took the time before bed to say my rosary.  I am so glad that I did.  I know that I need to make more time in my life for God, and by doing this I am able to do this.  I can take 30 minutes out of my busy day for him.

I am very excited that the novena has become a success for me

I can make it through

I have a lot of changes in my life as of lately. I know in my heart that they are for the better. That by no means make them any easier. I have had people who I thought were my friends just turn out not to be. I have had many days of crying and feeling a lot of self pity. I have had many days of eating anything just to help fill in the hurt.

I have been praying for help. I have been praying that I can be strong and I can make it through. I put my entire life into God's hands for the first time. I trusted that God would help guide me through the rough spots. I have a hard time trusting that anyone will help take care of me, and that things will work out.

I am amazed that by the trust that I put in God. By the faith, I have pulled through. I feel comfortable. I feel at peace. I know that I will make it through anything.

While there days I feel that I am starting over, I know that it is for the best. I am so much happier than I have ever been in my life. My boys are starting to see a mommy that is happy, and that is a wonderful feeling. I am appreciating what I have more than I ever have before. I know that I will make it through everything.

Children are such a Blessing

Today I was finishing fixing breakfast for my son and I and getting ready to sit down. The morning has been very hectic. The baby godzilla (my youngest son) tried to take his brother's cup and in the process got a bloody nose. Then he fell and scraped his hand. And to boot he did not sleep well last night because of the fact that he is teething, and super crabby. He has had a bad morning. King Kong (my oldest son) is in the why stage and is driving me crazy most of the day.

Well breakfast was finally done so I sat down and was looking forward to eating my breakfast. I have been teaching King Kong to pray before meals. He does it sometimes, but mostly will just sit there quietly. Today he looked at me and said mommy, we forgot to pray. How humbling. I can't believe that he took the tradition that I have been working so hard to get as apart of meals for the family and is taking it in his heart. I feel so blessed that he would think that is important to remind me.

As much as this morning has been crazy, it has been a great morning. I am so blessed to have two very active children, but childre that love me and that love being kids. I pray each day that they will grow up to be good people. Things like that make me think, that it is a possibility, that they will be great people.