Two wonderful kids that make me so proud. My husband had to take on a lot so that I could stay at home and raise our wonderful boys. But I still felt that I was missing something in my life.
I joined a moms club thinking that would help, and it did for a while, and then I found myself being run over by others. I would do anything for anyone. I wanted to make other people happy and have them like me. But I found out something very interesting... It did not matter, two short years later, they are no longer part of my life. I found myself back at square one.
Everything happens for a reason. The experience I had with the moms club I learned that I am much stronger that I ever imagined. I learned that people won't like you for giving in, that they will respect you for being yourself. What an important lesson to learn.
I felt that all the doors around me were closed and there were no windows. So I started to pray. I prayed a novena. I prayed every day. I for the first time in my life, not only made time for God, and not just a little time, but in many cases I found a way to thank him for every little things I did, from doing laundry to eating a healthy meal. Putting God first started to change my life. It improved my life. It made a difference in my life.
Now I am happier than I have ever been, or could ever be. I found a new group that I am excited to join. I can start over again with a clean slate. The difference this time... I will be myself. I will have fun. I will get to know everyone. I found a job. A job that I love. I am still able to stay at home and raise my children, but now I can make some money.
I could not ask for anything more. I am happier in my life now than I have ever been. I know that by finally realizing that I need to put God first in all that I do that I will make a difference in my life. A difference that is just going to help me grow. I know that some days are going to be rough, but I also know that I can over come it and I will make a difference
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It's amazing what God can do in us and for us when He gets us alone. Although my alone times were very painful, when the God brought me out, I can honestly say it brought forth more wisdom and understanding. Just a couple years ago, I went through a period of time when all my friends were to busy to fellowship or to even call to say hello. Then I realized, God wanted to move some people out of my life. He didn't replace them, but he redirected my focus. He helped to channel my energy into being the best wife I could be, the best mother I could be, and the best example I could be to other Christian women. It still gets lonely sometimes, but when it does, I just stop and count my blessings.
S. Miller
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