Still Sore

It has been over a week since my accident, and I am still sore.
I am thankful that it is better at some points in the day.  I am just praying and taking it day by day.
I took my car in on Monday to be fixed.  Before I took it in it looked like this:

 

It does not looks so bad, but there is quite a bit of damage on the car.  I am thankful that I was put in another Sienna.  I love driving my sienna, and I feel very comfortable driving this Sienna as well.

I am also glad that the insurance companies have determined that I was not at fault.  I knew that I was not at fault, but I was still nervous weighting.

Looking back this accident has effected me in so many ways.

• I had to stop breastfeeding my baby.  
• I was not emotionally ready for this
• He was not emotionally ready for this
• I am sore, and doing the simple, everyday tasks has become very difficult for me to do
• I have a hard time cooking, cleaning, sitting with my children
• Playing with my children
• Working out
• I can't work out.  I have been working hard to lose weight, and now I am at a stand still and I am afraid that I am not going to get back to working out.
• Screeching Tires
• Every time I hear them I have to stop what I am doing and take a deep breath.  This was the sound I heard right before I was hit.

It is just amazing to me that a simple accident that took seconds has effected me in so many ways.  I want my life to go back to normal.  I want my car back.  I want to be able to clean and play with my children with out pain and suffering.  I know that one day I will have it again.

I will never take for granted all that I did before.  I have seen how things change so quickly.

Car Accident

Last week my mother and I were in a car accident.  It was the scariest moment of my life. 
I was sitting at a light, stopped.  All of a sudden out of no where a guy turned left, and ran right into the front of my car.
I have had so many different emotions from the accident.  I have been scared, sore, sad, angry - just to name a few. 
The more I am thinking about the accident, the more that I realise that I am not remembering the entire accident.
I am very thankful that I drive a van.  I think that I would have been seriously injured if I did not drive a van.
I was taken to the hospital in my first ambilance ride.  I was on a back board with a c-spine collar on. 
In the hospital I was waiting, it seemed like forever.  Sitting there I was so uncomfortable.  But I am lucky I am only suffering from back and neck pain.
One of the hardest decisions I had to make was to force my son to stop nursing.  I was not ready to do that, and either was he.  I have found that I am going through a lot of emotions because I had to out of no where stop nursing him.  But I was given a choice, to take the medication and have some relief, or not take it at all, be in a ton of pain, and still nurse.  It was one of the most difficult decisions of my life.
It has almost been a week, and I am in so much pain.  Instead of the pain getting better, it is slowly getting worse.  I am having a very difficult time sleeping, sitting, standing - actually doing everything that I need to do.
I hope that things will start to get better soon.