Always Remember

7 years ago, I was sitting in my office and working.  I remember hearing someone say that a plane it the World Trade Center.  I also remember not thinking much about it.  Then I started seeing more and more people walk past my office going to the conference room.


I decided to follow.  That is when I realized the impact that this event would have on my life and everyone's life around me.  I got in the conference room just in time to watch the second plane hit the second tower.  We all sat there in awe.  Wondering what happened and why it was happened.  I was in shock, not knowing what to think or do.  I went to my parents house to eat lunch thinking that it was the end of the world.


I was scared, not sure what to think about.  I remember watching television and watching the death count rise.  Hearing  about the heroes that had lost their lives, just doing their jobs.  I started thinking of all of the children who had lost one or both of their parents.


As a result, much has changed in seven years.  I am now married with two children.  I have been very lucky to not have been effected by this tragic event, because I did not lose a loved one.  I have been effected by how I live my life, and the feeling of being scared every time a plane fly over my house.


We are at war, many men and women losing their lives for our freedom.  However, seven years later I am wondering if we have lost the reasoning why we are there.  If we are just fighting, to fight.  So many Americans have lost the will to fight this war.


We need to protect ourselves, but why not protect ourselves on our boarders?  With the Presidential election coming up, we have a big decision to make.  Who do we want to lead our country?  Who is going to make changes in how we live?


I know that when I cast my vote, I am going to make sure to keep one thing in mind - the events of 7 years ago, and now we can make a change.

I have come to realize

Looking around me today I realized so many things...

1. I've come to realize that my legs... carry me, through everything - good and bad

2. I've come to realize that my job... is wonderful, stressful, happy, amusing,

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving... I am telling Tyler to stop talking - he is just like his mother

4. I've come to realize that I need..... to have a stronger Faith, and Self- Esteem

5. I've come to realize that I have lost....who I was; But found who I am

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when....I am not listened to; When Nathan has to pinch my nipple to fall asleep; when Brian gets to sleep in and I have to get up with the kids - yet again

7. I've come to realize that when I'm drunk.... I get sentamental

8. I've come to realize that money....always seems to disappear as you find it

9. I've come to realize that certain people.... just don't understand me

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be..... emotional, sentimental and have trouble spelling

11. I've come to realize that I have...I have a great family who I love more than everything; a sister who is my best friend; and children that just want to make me smile

12. I've come to realize that my mom...is a hero to me

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone... is amazing, I would be lost without it


14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning... I want to be a better person

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep.... my arms were sore from giving Brian a massage. He is an amazing and caring man.
I am lucky to have him and all of his faults

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about... working - I have to get blogs completed; If I want another cup of coffee; and if Nathan is a monkey

17. I've come to realize that my sister... is an amazing mother, friend.  I would be lost with out her

18. I've come to realize that when I get on the internet... It is to work or get away from reality

19. I've come to realize that today... is going to be a fresh start, so make the most of it

20. I've come to realize that tonight....will mean working again...

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow.....starts a new week;

22. I've come to realize that I really want to....Be myself; Be happy; Be healthy and Be a good mother to my children.

Preschool Started

Today is my son's first day of Preschool.  I was nervous all morning.  I was thinking about everything that had to be done.
Would I get him to school on time?
Would he be o.k. with out mommy?
Would he have fun?
Would he make friends?
Would he share?
Would he cry?

These among so many other questions were going through my head.  He was so excited when we got there.  He jumped out of the car when I dropped him off and ran right to the teacher.  He had a big smile on his face.  Not once did he stop to turn around and look at mommy.

I had so many mixed feelings.  Part of me wished he wanted mommy more.  But the bigger part of me made me realise that he is growing up.  He is turning into such a wonderful little boy.  I have been told so many times tha the is so polite.  I am so proud of him.

I know he had fun.  I hope he knows just how proud mommy is of him!

Birthdays

The end of August and begining of September is time birthday time.  My mother, Father and Sister all have birthdays in the a two week period.  It is a busy but exciting time.

For my parents we got them both a Tshirt with all of the grandkids picture on it and tote bages also with a picture of the grandkids on it.

I am excited because for my sister's birthday I am going to offer to take a family picture for them and print out pictures for them.

I love birthdays.  It is such a fun time to spend and celebrate another year of life.

Sad to say goodbye

With one part of my life gone it is hard to say good bye.  I decided to let the MOMS Club chapter dissolve.  I can not do it alone.

I have met so many people in the MOMS Club that have changed my life.  Some have walked through it and left an impression.  Others have stayed and have made a special place in my heart. 

I had some of the best times of my life in that group.  I believe that God put them in my life to help me find that I am stronger than I give myself credit for.

I believe that God took them out of my life because he wanted me to be myself and learn and grow.  I know that no matter what happens, there is aways a reason.  I am stronger now than I was in the past.  I know who I am and who I want to be.

Juggling a new job

I have been feeling overwhelmed alot lately.  I have decided to start working from home.  I have jumped in head forst with 3 seperate jobs and the possibility of a couple of more jobs.  Sometimes I wonder if I am crazy. 

I do this because I want to provide my family with the best.  It is so scary when there are so many different expenses that come up on a monthly basis.  We have birthdays coming up.  And don't forget about Christmas.

I feel blessed that I was able to find a work from home job.  I just wish I could find a balance with everything I am doing  I have been struggling this month, taking on so much more than I can handle.  I  now know that I am doing it for a reason. 

I look forward to September.  I am looking to start to scale down what I am doing.  I have not had much time to spend with my children this month.  I want to find a balance between working, sleep and my family.  I know that it can get done.  It is just going to tak a little time for me to figure it out.

Finally starting to feel happy

What a difference a couple of months make.  I have had so many changes in my life, I am just amazed.  I have learned that my life is finally taking a path I believe I should have been on.  I am working which I have not done in a while.  I am just amazed on how much I missed it.  While I am working from home, and it has added a level of stress to my life, but it is worth it.  I love it.

I have decided that I am not ment to be president of the MOMS Club.  I love the organization, but because of the recient events I believe that MOMS Club is not what this area, or I need.  I am still acting as an Area Coordinator, and I am glad for that, I love volunteering for this organization.  I miss going out with the ladies.  Tyler misses playing with the kids.  I feel so bad for him.  He was not involved in anything and the poor kid no longer has the friends that he was closest too.  But he does have a few. 

I know that I want to see my son succeed.  I am so happy that he will be starting school here soon.  That is going to be so much fun for him.  I am so excited.  He will be able to make some new friends and that will be great for him.  I think that he needs this time.  I am looking forward to it too.  I want to see what he learns.

I believe that I have been put on a new path in my life for a reason.  What the reason is I am not sure.  I know that God will give me that answer when he is ready.  I want to be his servent.  I want to live my life in the way he would want me to. 

As one of my favorite songs says -
Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord, I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord if you lead me....